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Post by Ayumi on Jul 9, 2006 10:48:08 GMT -5
i've been feeling kind of under the weather lately..and i've been trying to decide on a lot of feelings in me..it just doesn't mean anything..haha
u know..?
well..i don't think i belong here..in this world..but of course i don't think that i do but i can't leave..my life can't be taken away so easily as that..
because i guess u start living and u r used to it..
but lately..i'm finding no reason to hang on..if it wasn't for ff..or robespierre..or these guillotines..i would be just cutting myself..
i don't know why..
but my life isn't going in the way i want it to ..
it sucks..
i'm constantly being ignored..and yelled at..and my friend Kevin said..that I am truly one of the few who questions society and where it is..going..
and i believe maybe that might be the case..i wonder if I did have a past life..i wonder if I did..
and i wonder how i would of been..i wonder..
but hopefully..i can get through this..like any other problem that i have..by being strong...and looking on the bright side of things..u know..?
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Post by Freakyone on Jul 9, 2006 12:50:09 GMT -5
ayumi, i have felt like that some times. like you know i have never felt like really loved or even liked, i still dont think anyone really should like me even if they do (they dont really know me cause im a not as nice person like as some people say and im not as smart as i some think i am.) tho i have never thought of cuting myself i do hurt myself a lot of the time anyway this isn't about me i just felt that it was something i had to write. hope you feel better  |
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Post by Ayumi on Jul 9, 2006 19:17:52 GMT -5
me too..thanks for the advice..i listen to everyone..about these kind of things..u know?
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Post by Freakyone on Jul 9, 2006 22:32:17 GMT -5
not really... i wrote that then i was like wait if i was the one reading this i would be pissed  but w/e |
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Post by Ayumi on Jul 12, 2006 8:24:08 GMT -5
*confused* but that's okay..*sweats*
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Post by Freakyone on Jul 12, 2006 19:37:04 GMT -5
dont know why but i hate it when someone tells me they know that im going thru fells like but thats just me....
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Post by Ayumi on Jul 14, 2006 16:45:21 GMT -5
i hear it enough..i am beginning to hate that myself..u know?
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Post by Freakyone on Jul 14, 2006 20:02:06 GMT -5
yes
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Post by Ayumi on Jul 15, 2006 3:41:01 GMT -5
dododododo
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Post by Freakyone on Jul 15, 2006 18:17:24 GMT -5
HMMMM
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Post by kirara on Jul 16, 2006 18:52:53 GMT -5
i felt the same way, and i started cutting myself......but, ya kno, it really isn't worth ending your life, it will get better, some how, in some way, it's gonna get better, you have to find something that motivates you to live, something that you'll strive for.........for me, it's love. i'm gonna keep living so i can find that special person who will love me for who i am, and will love me unconditionably. please ayumi, don't cut yourself......
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Post by Freakyone on Jul 16, 2006 23:24:37 GMT -5
lol i have nothing to to look foward too i just am to damn lame to do something about it.... i really am the biggest losser i know...
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Post by kirara on Jul 17, 2006 20:47:43 GMT -5
NO UR NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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inuyasha31
Peasant
talk to me.......if you must..........no realy only if its important......leave me the hell alone!!!
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Post by inuyasha31 on Jul 17, 2006 23:15:20 GMT -5
yea dude your awsome! (thats something for a guy like me to say) i mean your soo understanding. (damm it theres the bi me) you cool! dont call or sell yourself short.
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Post by Edlover on Jul 18, 2006 5:37:35 GMT -5
Ayumi- I feel like that a lot. Idk y and Im still not over it so really I can't give u any advice, but I hope it makes u feel better that ur not the only one that feels that way. Well it makes me feel better,I know that sounds weird lol Richy-I know u have no self esteem at all and that u think nobody loves u and that is not true!! u know it. feel better and don't turn emo like me lol Kirara- meh, I don't believe in love, its fake. I belive u can like someone as a friend or a sibling or a parent but more than that is just false hope and bullshit. i know that sounds emo but w/e Im happy for ya though that sounds really weird after i said all that but i really do lol  |
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Post by Ayumi on Jul 18, 2006 10:57:22 GMT -5
ohhhh
u guys r sooo full of good advice..don't worry..I talked to many of my family members
I won't Kirara..and u r right..it doesn't mean anything to be doing something so stupid..
well i won't! ^^
well I guess it has to get better..right?
*hugs Kirara*
*hugs everyone*
I believe in love some how..*sighs* I am just waiting..^^
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Post by Freakyone on Jul 18, 2006 21:18:45 GMT -5
im sorry but i still know no one like the real me... (i dont so no one really should) anyway your guys are all cool so stop being sad  im the only one that should be sad |
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Post by Ayumi on Jul 19, 2006 13:13:12 GMT -5
*hugs freaky1*
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Post by Freakyone on Jul 19, 2006 21:30:06 GMT -5
lol
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Post by Edlover on Jul 20, 2006 20:00:14 GMT -5
im sorry but i still know no one like the real me... (i dont so no one really should) anyway your guys are all cool so stop being sad im the only one that should be sad r u saying that this u is not the real u??? well if this u is really not the real u u should be the real u cuz im sure we all love the u r right now and im sure we all will love the u u really r |
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Post by Ayumi on Jul 21, 2006 20:21:30 GMT -5
okay too many u's..haha
don't make me kiss u freaky1!!!! RAWR!!!!
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Post by Freakyone on Jul 21, 2006 20:21:59 GMT -5
edlover i happen to know that it would be a bad idea to act anyway way other then i do on this site on this site, (if that confuseing im sorry)
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Post by Ayumi on Jul 21, 2006 20:26:10 GMT -5
*pokes u* u r not listening...*singsong voice*
i understand perfectly! ^^
LISTEN TO ME!! plz?
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Post by Freakyone on Jul 21, 2006 23:29:16 GMT -5
really |
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Goddess of Heaven and Hell 
You Don't Want To Know What Happens When You Piss Me Off....
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Post by Iñü¥å§häGîrl1Ø25 on Jul 22, 2006 0:27:22 GMT -5
Well. I have never cut, hurt, thought bad of myself or anything of the sort, so I can't compare. Sorryness.
Just remember there are more people that care about you, You hurt yourself or die, and they will cry. Don't think i'm not one of them, I found out something happened to one of you and it would be worse then dying myself. You guys are the world and more. Love you ALL <3
Please, If you ever need to talk about something PM me, I'm always open for any of you. You should know that by now. I may just be an admin, but I'd like to be your friend. ^^
So, I <3 you. ^^
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but w/e 
im the only one that should be sad
